It has been ranging between mid to high 30C degrees daily as well as a few above 40C degrees. If I am still at this job next year I think I may have to invest in an air conditioner. Actually its not so much the cost of the air conditioner as the monthly running costs, but its only for a couple of months I suppose, and sleep is very important.
I will write once I am getting enough sleep to be able to think again.
Ruby
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My sisters and I divided all the cooking this year, as its getting to hard for mum, so I did all the meat dishes, one sister all the baking and the other sister did all the odds and ends. It made it for an interesting meal commenting on everyones cooking and a few disasters, we are swapping the cooking lists next year so we all get a turn at trying all things so the traditional Christmas meal does not go astray
I didn’t have any attacks at all, but was very tired each night with all the socialising, and I must say I was glad to get back home on Boxing Day. A friends grown son came back with us and stayed for 4 days so that was spent doing the hostess thing.
I didn’t do anything for New Years but I normally don’t so that wasn’t a problem, I was enjoying the kids stories and photos of their nights out. Then Chloe had her birthday on the 4th Jan and it was great to have her here for that. She went back home today ready to start work again tomorrow.
I started back at work last Thursday, it was nice to have a 2 day week when first getting back, had gotten used to being slack after nearly 2 weeks off, then back to it again tomorrow night.
Well its 2008 and I have plans of making a more positive year in various areas, number one is doing some social things to get to meet some people, I haven’t decided what yet, but I will have a look around in the local paper to find what is going on. I feel like I can face people now that I have at least something to talk about - work - cause I haven’t done anything else worth talking about, and I am sure they don’t want to hear about my Agoraphobia and Panic Attacks 
I also want to spend some time and money in redecorating my house, I have made a small start where I have painted a feature wall
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Happy new year Ruby!
Ok, so I know we’re well into the new year, but it’s the 1st time I’ve posted a comment to you this year, so I think it’s deserved.
Anyhow, your description of your holiday activities painted a very enjoyable picture indeed. It’s good to see you in such a positive frame of mind. Improvements cannot fail to follow! I look forward to reading about them.
As always, Marie & I have you in our thoughts.
Best wishes.
Excellent content here and a nice writing style too - keep up the great work!
Thanks
I have been without internet for a while, but I am back now
Hi Ruby!
Good to hear from you again! I hope that things are going well for you.
You can have some of the cold, grey, damp weather we’ve got here, if you like! But, actually, I prefer the temperature not to go too much above 20°.
Best wishes!
Hi Ruby, what weather you’re having! It’s horrible here, the wind is howling and it’s trying very hard to snow. Then it pours with rain! Yuck! Cannot get warm at all today.
Worrying over sleep sure does make it worse. When you’re lying there thinking that you ought to be sleeping, it just causes guilt and more anxiety. I’m awake well into the night all the time, but don’t have the pressure of having to cope at work. It’s hard to battle with panic when you’re very tired too. I emapthise with how you must be feeling. Come to England where it’s freezing! We’re all sruggling to keep warm at night!
All the best, Steph x
Ruby are you okay? Getting a bit worried that you’ve not been around for a while. Hope things are well :-/
I just came accross ur page today, i am so happy to finally read/hear that i am not alone in how i feel, i actually cried. I have been off work for comming up to 7 months with this “anxiety” and just feel lost. i don’t see a light at the end of my tunnel and am so desperate to go back to work even though i still wake up with heart palpatations so strong that my whole body shakes and God forbid i should have an unexpected knock on my door (i can never answer it), i’m too panicy to drive and can’t catch a bus on my own so i walk for miles and miles to anywere i need to go ( i say walk but it’s more like speed walking with headphones and a hat on looking at the floor). i have good days every now and then but mostly bad days, and i can’t even start to tell you about the stress that my work have caused mr from bullying from a manager to witholding pay to not being able to “guarentee” part time hours if i return to work.
please, were u as bad as me and how long did it take u to see the light?
Hey Ruby,
Haven’t heard form you in awhile but hoping that all is fine with you and your family.
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I think your site is great and would like to trade links with you. My site is about my personal fight with agoraphobia. Anyway, great site!
- James
I have agoraphobia also and it sucks Ive had it for 3 years now and it doesnt seem to be lightening up anytime soon.
James
http://www.anxiety-agoraphobia.com
I just clicked on to this site out of curiousity and I read a little bit. I suffered from panic attacks and agoraphobia when I was 16. I continued to suffer through them until I was diagnosed with brain cancer in 1998. I have long since recovered and I am writing a book about how I survived brain cancer, the foster care system and a couple of drunk husbands and finally a bad assualt on me before my diagnosis. I am hoping that a lot of people will read my book and learn how depression ties into anxiety attacks. I will be visiting this site again soon.
How are you doing there?
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